The baby inside me...

Yes, I'm gonna be a mom soon. How soon? 1 week's time? 2 week's time or even longer depending on the little girl. You see, this hasn't been a smooth pregnancy for me right from the start. Somehow I've managed 9 months of it.

There were times I resented her for all the miseries she had caused me. My first trimester I couldn't swallow anything. Finally when into my 2nd trimester I could start to eat, I ended up vomitting everything. Even when in car or taxi I needed to standby a plastic bag. Middle of 2nd trimester, I had more problems arising. I couldn't drink or eat any diary products, not even soy. I was tested positive for gestation diabetics and therefore, till today I am not allowed to take in any drinks or food that has sugar content. 3rd trimester I am being ordered by my gynae to bed rest.

I started to have early contractions too and have been on extra medication to make sure this baby won't join the world too early. I was even admitted to hospital because of this. I was on drip and 2 painful injections to mature her lungs in case of early labour.

Thankfully, after all these ordeals, I have managed to survive for 36 weeks with her inside me. I do not know how to describe my feelings at this moment. I realise that I won't have many days left with her inside me, how I feel weird whenever she hiccups inside me or make a slight movement. I know that I'll miss having her inside me, but at the same time I'm looking forward to how she looks like and how her small body feels in my arms.

My little angel will be called Shena. It means "God's grace". Nice meaning right? Truth is, she is indeed god's grace. After 2 miscarriages, this tough pregnancy really makes me cherish her even more. It hasn't been an easy journey for both of us, especially to my husband. He has to endure my emotional trashhold and at the same time, taking care of both mommy and baby.

Well, let's have a glimpse of her chubby face first. It's not very clear but still can see her chubby face. Shena, say hi to the world of bloggers =)